Hide-out
I am a traveller ,
catching feelings - matching feelings
Differing thoughts - what not
Concise words , precise notions , calculated emotions
Measured laughs , designated smiles
Handful of talks , treasured secrets
I ought to spill everything out
But whom? But who? But how? But how?
Now i lie ,
I am glittered in gold , painted in pain
Standing on my strongest
Shallow inside , hollow on the heart
Broken hearted , with stolen smiles ;
painted faces - painful faces
I used to be a writer but my pen disagreed to write -
about myself
a dancer but my steps started to stumble , i stopped
a singer but my rhythms didnt tune well , i stopped
An artist but i painted myself ugly , i stopped
Again !
Stopped and moved , marched and marched .
Forward with things i had left behind
With nothing , to nowhere
All emptied and emptiness
With them - to them
They see my perfectly crafted face , they love my beautifully painted smiles
But who sees the stains?
The colours i used to paint ?
But who sees those ugly marks ? Who sees them ?
This ugliness and dullness my heart possess
I see drops of rain and i turn happy
I feel air against my cheeks , feel content, turn merry
Happiness comes in pieces , they say
Mine lies in stones and rivers
Giant !
aren't they?
I stare i stare i gaze
I see mountains and skies and they make me wonder
How fortunate to have them through these eyes
Stored for ever and ever and ever
Untouched , unkept , unsought
My memories , my treasures
I run into clouds , i seek for a hideout
Run away from responsibilities
Run away from you , from me , from them
Run away , far far and far
Far enough to be free from you , from me , from them
I want to travel places
But not cities , just plain grounds
Photograph them , view them through my heart,
To see whats beneath ocean , beyond horizons and above clouds
I want to know people , the unknown
Listen them , the unheard
See their eyes , feel them and take their pains with me
Its what i feel , like always , since always
I cry with them , their pain feels like mine
Their smiles speak to me ,
Hide and seek it is , my life , my fortune
Hiding from storms , seeking shelter
Hiding from you , seeking my soul , seeking myself
Through windows - of desires , of belongingness , of you
What has to become of this poor girl , this unfortunate bird
The bird with no wings , but wings of hopes , wings of life
The bird , with nowhere to go but everywhere to be
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